The Death of Me

I have no idea where I got to where I am today.

Everything is so wrong about me; I lie, I deceive, I seduce.

My entire being scrams evil and hatred. I have turned down a path no person should ever traverse.

In its depths is a hallow emptiness pulling my soul in to a dark abyss, never to return again.


Suddenly, I find myself slipping into its murky water.

Once I’m in, everything spirals around me out of control and I begin to get sucked into the crazy whirlpool my life has become.

The god from the normal me has been washed away in the lapping darkness.

I have nothing left to grasp unto to help keep me firmly grounded.


“HELP,” I cry out. No one hears my futile screams.

Who possibly could above all the crashing waves around me and thunderous clouds over head?

My friends have left me, I am in this alone.

It is not as if I didn’t deserve this.

I’m surprised they could stand the sight of me.


They must have felt as if they were looking at some repulsive monster corroded from the inside out.

They must be happy, HA what irony, they will never have to look into these eyes of grief.

“AHHH!!” It has become so cold, how is the water not frozen and unmoving?


This is what my heart as become, frigid and unfeeling.

Yes, I’m finally nearing the end of this turmoil.

I see the eye of my destiny it glares at me from the center of the vortex urging me forward.

I give in, I have nothing left anyway. I’m taken into the eye of darkness. My last thought it is, “Oh God why me...?”


Have you ever felt as if your world was slipping from underneath you and you are incapable of stopping your own demise? I’m sure everyone has, no one’s life is ever perfect. As I have said before, someone’s life may seem easier to another but it can still be difficult for the person living it.

Just recently, something came up in my life, and my world felt like this it was just a tidal wave of emotional feeling, rising and falling. Nothing seemed to end the pain; it was uncontrollable and sweeping me from the shore.

Finally, in desperation, I grabbed a hold of the first thing I could and held on. I look over and realize it’s my best friend, Katie. She helped pull me out of the torturous waters I fell into, by just being there for me and suggesting things for me to do. She worked at it until eventually I was back to my old self again.

It is always nice to have someone you can rely on, keeping you on your toes. You may never know what will hit you next. If it hits you by surprise and you cannot deal with the weight put on your shoulders, you need to have a friend there to catch you when you fall. Without this help from your friends, you will surely be swept away.